An unoriginally titled update.

I haven’t been updating lately because I’m extremely busy with exams (just one actually) coming up.

I’ll start with Eric, since he’s been the main topic of my blog for the last year. We’re still broken up and we still intend to keep it that way. I’ve spoken to him once since we made it official and we manged to have a normal, civil conversation. However I have no interest in continuing any kind of friendship with him and he seems to be happy with his new girlfriend, even though during our conversation he complained to me that “women are all crazy – except you it seems..”. All I can say to that is yep, you choose some crazy bitches. Get used to it.

Now that that’s out of the way, I’ve definitely fallen in love with the new addition, who’s name I have decided will be Wendesday (everybody hates it except me). My parents caved and decided that she can stay under the condition that I move out and take her with me as soon as possible, and I was more than happy to agree. She’s the most relaxed and affectionate animal I’ve ever met, she hasn’t scratched or bit me once. I can’t believe she came off the street – she had to have belonged to somebody else. I still don’t feel guilty because any good pet owner knows that a cat should not be allowed to roam the streets. It’s not unfair to keep them in a house. What’s unfair is to let them out into the neighborhood to be hit by cars, attacked by other animals, or who knows what else. Anybody who lets that happen has no business taking care of animals.

There’s been some serious drama going on at work lately, resulting in my boss being fired for something that was not entirely her fault. The way she handles cash is a bit too relaxed, I’ll admit that. But she is being accused of stealing over $400 in the last month or so. She just recently fired a woman who has 5 kids and was very open about her financial situation. For example she said to me one day “I’m so hungry, I haven’t eaten in 3 days because my cheque didn’t go through”. Hm. Not to mention she attempted to steal right in front of me (I didn’t let her get away with it). It’s very clear to me who the guilty one is here. So now her boss (the operations manager) is taking her place for the next couple weeks, making my life extremely stressful. I’d quit but I have a new reason to stay..heh.

I’m becoming more and more interested in this guy I work with..we’ll call him Mark. At first I just thought he was good looking but not my type, but he’s such an intriguing person. And it’s true that he’s not my type at all which makes it even more interesting to me.  I now he has a more colorful past but he’s a great guy now from what I’ve seen of him. I’m getting some seriously mixed signals from him though. Or maybe it’s just that I’ve ended up dating most guys that I’ve been friends with so I’m interpreting his friendliness wrong. I hope not – I want this to lead somewhere. I’ve been hoping for it since before Eric and I broke up, now that I think about it.

The Grand Finale.

Where to begin…

Eric and I have broken up. According to him he’s decided what he wants has “changed”. If you ask me, it’s not a coincidence that this sudden change came with the beginning of soccer season. There’s no way it’s a coincidence that this happened right after he met his new soccer medic, who he happens to be coincidentally be “seeing” now that our relationship is over. No, he didn’t change his mind…his mind was changed for him. Not that he wasn’t more than thrilled to let it happen.

The fact that we aren’t together anymore isn’t what kills me. The fact that he already has somebody new isn’t what makes me furious. What really pisses me off is the fact that he had the nerve to breaks the new that he had a date with somebody that night and we “need to talk” through a text message. I’m embarassed to even admit that. Two and a half years later and he not only lies to me and goes behind my back with another girl (I had to pry the fact that it was her out of him, he originally told me it was “some guy friends”), but he can’t even admit it to my face.

I sent the girl a message over facebook (oohh technology, facebook makes everything so incredibly lame) telling her what I thought of people who enable cheating and she quickly responded with a long apology, blaming her emotionally abusive boyfriend who lives across the country. Despite how pathetic I find it that she’s that desperate for male attention, I initially sympathized with her. In fact, I even convinced her to leave her boyfriend (and sent her rebounding straight to Eric). Of course that all changed when Eric and I officially ended the relationship face to face, and she sent me a multitude of messages explaining what a terrible person she thinks I am for hurting him. How selfish it was of me to give him back the necklace he brought me from Italy, because I ruined his graduation night. Sorry, but he ruined his own graduation night when he chose to be a dick. He deserves to feel guilty for what he’s done. I have to laugh at the whole situation, the main reason either of them are interested in each other is because they’re both rebounding from long term relationships. She’s also 3 years older than him, which is okay when you’re 40…but the difference between an 18 year old male and a 21 year old female is pretty big. Ohh boy. I don’t see much hope for their relationship, especially considering they both began it by cheating. I have no sympathy for however it turns out.

I can’t say there’s much hope for us being together again either. With college/university starting next year I think we’ll both be moving on for good. I also can’t say I’m horribly disappointed or surprised. It was bound to happen, I’m just seriously unimpressed with the way he chose to go about it. Not to mention the terrible timing which caused me to miss his graduation banquet that I’ve been preparing for/looking forward to for months. I still love him but we’re not on such good terms anymore, as it tends to happen with breakups. I’d say he burned his bridges completely to the ground this time.

Now on a happier note, a cat wandered into work the other day and decided to live in our back storage room. I took her home since my boss was getting in trouble and she refused to leave, so she’s been here since yesterday. She’s pure black with bright yellow eyes, about 6 months old, and extremely affectionate. I’ve been dying to have a cat for as long as I can remember, especially a pure black one. The only catch is that my parents are out of town for the weekend which is the only reason she’s here right now. They have been extremely adamant about the fact that we will not have any more pets in this house. She’s adjusted to the house very well though, using the litter pan and so far not destroying anything. Our dog has even gotten past the initial jealousy. They come home on Monday so if I don’t blog again you’ll know that I’m buried somewhere in my back yard. Wish me luck, anyway.

In case you’re wondering what’s going on in my life…

Eric and I are breaking up again. I’m kind of “whatever” about it since it’s not the first time and there’s a good chance it wont be the last. There’s a pretty bizarre story to go along with it actually, but I’m too lazy/depressed to even eat properly right now let alone blog about it. I just figured I’d let you know I’m still alive.

Random fact: Our relationship began two and a half years ago but we’ve never been together during the summer.

P.S. I love him to death and we’re still on good terms, so don’t go bashing him and saying I’m better off.

Reasons why I’m not worried about the swine flu.

1) SARS.

2) West Nile Virus.

3) Avian Flu.

4) 28 Days Later.

5) Outbreak.

6) Dawn of the Dead.

7) Quarantine.

8.) I Am Legend.

What I’m trying to say is that these things come and go every year, and every year the media blows it out of proportion. No virus outbreak is going to come close to any of the movies we’ve seen in the last few years. There are  much more important and much more common epidemics that we should be concerned about (AIDS, anyone?). Stay away from Mexico, wash your hands (as you should be doing anyway), and you’re going to be fine.

I’m getting so sick of hearing about this.

I really AM a Hypochondriac..I have all the symptoms.

The last few days have been pretty uneventful, I’m not sure why I’m even bothering with this. We had our Easter Dinner at work which I tried to avoid, but ended up going back a half hour later out of guilt. I just have a thing about eating and having to converse with people I don’t know. I don’t enjoy it. It turned out alright though, by the time I got back most people were finishing up and leaving. My boss broke out a bottle of Sambuca while they were cleaning up and that was when I decided to leave. Getting drunk with co-workers is also pretty high on my list of things I don’t like to do.

Eric stayed over last night and I cooked supper (for myself, since he wouldn’t eat what I made) while he sat on the couch watching TV – I guess this is something I should get used to. The only cooking he does is 5 minute bacon, popcorn, and toast. We tried to have a kind of Lord of the Rings marathon but didn’t even make it through one movie before we fell asleep.

As I was getting into bed I noticed a pain in my left side. It wasn’t horrible so I ignored it, until about 5:30 AM when I woke up having a panic attack, completely convinced that my kidneys were failing and I was going to die. Poor Eric, he didn’t know whether to be concerned for my health or my sanity. I hyperventilated and convulsed for an hour while he tried to figure out if he should take me to the hospital, until – much to his relief – I finally wore myself out and fell asleep. I was okay this morning/afternoon, but during supper I started getting worse and now I feel like hell. Headache, stomach ache, weird feelings going on in my stomach still that aren’t quite pains but definitely don’t feel good either. So it would seem that I’m either dying, pregnant, or just minorly sick and somewhat crazy (most likely the latter).

Progress!

I love Britney Spears. The very first CD I ever bought was a Britney Spears CD [I had no idea who she was, it just seemed like a good idea at the time] and I’ve loved her ever since. So I was super thrilled when I got to finally see her concert the other night! It was actually my first legitamate concert too, now that I think about it [I'm a late bloomer]. It was amazing, there were so many circus performances and things going on that it probably would have been entertaining enough without her. It was like a mini Cirque Du Soleil with singing. The Pussycat Dolls weren’t so bad either. Definitely worth the money, although the tickets were a gift so I didn’t pay for them, and definitely worth the 5 month wait.

I have to say that my life at the moment is going swimmingly. Eric came back from Italy [ONE day before the earthquake, thank god] and brought me back two beautiful blown glass necklaces – apparantly blown glass is big in Venice – and a painting that I have yet to see. I definitely overreacted while he was gone by completely convincing myself that he had forgotten all about me. He didn’t contact me at all until two nights before he came home, which of course I knew was because he was very busy, but I don’t think I’ve gone that long without talking to him ever. Obviously aside from the five month during which we were hardly on speaking terms. Anyway, completely contrary to my ridiculous beliefs, he said that being in Italy made him realize how much he can’t stand to be away from me even for a day. I have to agree, it was definitely a long 10 days.

Since he’s been home we’ve both bought new vehicles, his is a Dodge of some sort and mine is  Jeep Liberty. It’s gotten so stressful having to rely on other rides, and it’s hard to go places when you’re borrowing vehicles to get around..our relationship would start getting a bit dull if we had to keep this up. So we’re both pretty excited about that.

I’ve also applied for school, finally. I sent in my application today for the Bachelor of Arts/Bachelor of Education University transfer. I’m a bit nervous because I know I don’t have the best high school marks, so pleaaase keep your fingers crossed for me! I’m so glad to finally be moving forward with all of this, I’ve been stuck in the same place for so long that I was starting to get pretty negative about it.

I’ve never felt so freee.

It’s finally SPRING. The sound of water pouring off the rooftops is music to my ears at the moment; the mud and slush and dirty cars have never been such a welcome sight. My spring break, however, is going to be particularly uneventful this year. With Eric on the opposite side of the planet and my family gone for a week, I’m going to be completely alone. I don’t do alone time so well, and with absolutely no contact from Eric for 10 days I very well might be crazy by the end of it. We worked out our uh..problem..before he left. For a few days there I was almost seeing the end of this.  I proved him wrong [not just to prove him wrong, of course] and he shut right up with the accusations and went back to being a normal, rational person. Whatever.

I’m starting to feel so old lately, with all this new technology they keep inventing every day. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m perfectly content with the technology I know and I have no desire for any of this new crap. iPhones, Skype, Twitter, even the new Facebook is annoying me. I don’t need Skype, I own a phone. I don’t need an iPhone [or a smartphone of any kind], I have a computer to access the internet. And I certainly don’t need Skype for my iPhone. Where the hell is the logic in that one? Are people getting extremely lazy, or am I just becoming old? Ugh.

One good thing about my supersonic mental aging is that more and more, I find myself not caring what other people think of me. I have just about no desire to impress anybody but myself lately; I didn’t even wear makeup today and it felt great. Eric might have something to do with it. He loves me; my mind, my body, every single flaw. He’s told me over and over that his favorite time with me is when we first wake up. When my hair is sticking up in every direction and I can hardly open my eyes or speak a coherent sentence; this is when he finds me the sexiest. I wish every girl could feel this way.

The last 43 829.0639 minutes of my life (approximately).

Is it just me, or are people way too touchy these days? I’m talking about the big deal people have been making about Obama’s Special Olympic comment. Do you mean to tell me that you’ve never said something offensive without thinking? I know a few people who are disabled [or "differently abled" or however we're sugar coating things now to make people feel good about themselves] and I’m in no way offended by this. It’s not something he should have said, but he’s human, humans makes mistakes. People say that this would be a way bigger deal if Bush had said it, and I have to agree. But he was hated for many many other reasons, and that is all I have to say about that.

Anyway I’ve been a bit busy this month, which is my excuse for the lack of updating. I finished my driver’s training course last week which was like pulling teeth. It’s not that driving wasn’t fairly easy, it was the fact that I had a hard time resisting the urge to drive my instructor straight into a wall. What an arrogant prick. 4 out of 5 lessons left me in tears,  I don’t learn by degradation. But all I have to do now is pass the road test and I’m ready to drive, hopefully by tomorrow I will be the owner of a 2003 Jeep Liberty.

My other excuse for not updating lately is that I’ve been completely captivated by the Twilight saga. I avoided it as long as I could, completely refusing to be a part of the ridiculously overrated fad, but I caved when Erin left the first book in my room. I had nothing else better to do so I started reading it…and finished about 4 hours later. It would have taken me a grand total of four days to read all of the books, if it wasn’t for the fact that my town doesn’t have a book store and I don’t get out much. I finished the final book last night. Is it just me, or is it always a bit sad when you finish a good story? It’s like saying goodbye to a friend that you’re not going to see for a long time. I tried to drag it out as much as possible but I’m a fast reader. I’m not going to give anything away for the people who haven’t read them, so all I’m going to say is that [in my humble opinion] there is clearly a reason for this “fad”.

Eric and I were doing pretty good up until a few nights ago, where he made the typical mistake of expecting me to be in the mood despite me clearly stating that I was not. I declined, his ego was bruised, and now he can’t let it go. So now he’s accusing me of “never being interested anymore”. I’ve seen him about 4 times in the past 3 weeks, and have had very legitimate reasons not to be [sick, cold sores, period..he'll thank me one day]. The only reason I turned him down is because I’m sick and he’s taking a trip to Italy in a few days. What kind of horrible girlfriend does such a thing? Now to make up for his damaged ego, he’s attributing this to the problems I’ve had with sex in the past as a result of my last boyfriend. I’m furious about this. Livid. Bringing this up and using it to deny his own insecurities is one of the most selfish things he has ever done.

A few days ago before all of this mess started, his sister invited me to a kind of bachelorette party she’s throwing tomorrow. I guess one of her guy friends is getting married, so she’s throwing a party for the girls. Or something. The point is in the two and a half years I’ve been with with Eric, I’ve hardly talked to her. I don’t do good in social situations. Especially social situations revolving around food [dinner will be involved]. But not going would be…I don’t know, I feel like she’s practically my sister-in-law and I should be getting to know her better. So I am going to this party tomorrow night, without Eric to hide behind. Wish me luck.

If positivity is what you’re looking for, you’ve come to the wrong place.

My house is a zoo at the moment. My entire family plus Erin’s boyfriend have taken a quick trip…I’ll fill you in on that first actually.

My parents bought a small house in another province for a vacation/retirement house, but recently “rented” it out to my dad’s sister and her new husband who had nowhere to live. I say rented in quotations because they have actually been living there free, under the conditions that they use the $6 000 that my parents gave them to build cupboards for us (the husband is a carpenter/cupboard maker). Well 7 months later they have yet to begin building the cupboards, and have in fact spent the money on other debts of their own. They had a python which they eventually let die because they couldn’t afford to feed it, which infuriates me even more since I’m sure they still managed to smoke 4 packs a day between the two of them.

So this trip is essentially to swing by, check out what’s been done, and (assuming we don’t have beautiful, brand new cupboards) kick them out of our house.

As I was saying, my house is a zoo right now. I’ve been left to take care of my own guinea pig, Erin’s bunny, Chris’s bearded dragon, and the family dog. Not to mention myself having to finish my module by Tuesday (so not going to happen) and get to work across town every day with no license, which is not a bad walk when it’s not snowing (WHEN is it not snowing?).

I’m not used to living completely by myself, it’s pretty lonely. I haven’t seen Eric all week due to our shitty schedules, and he’s taking the night to go to the bar with his sister and her boyfriend, rather than coming to see me. Before you think he’s a terrible boyfriend, I work at 8 30 tomorrow morning and it would be a complete waste of his time. I guess I’ll be throwing myself a pity party tonight.

Valentines Day.

Our valentines day was very simple, Eric and I agreed not to get each other anything (we’re both stretching every penny trying to pay for our tuition, vehicles, etc.). His mom and sister have been really into scrap booking/card making lately, so he brought over a cute little card and bag of chocolates that they put together. So instead of going out for a fancy dinner (we’re not classy people in the slightest) we picked up some McDonald’s and caught a Star Wars marathon on TV. Along with some dancing and cuddling in front of the fireplace, it was a perfect night in our world.

Last night Eric’s parents celebrated his birthday (it’s actually not until Wednesday) so we went there and had turkey dinner and cake, opened some gifts, and played a game of Apples to Apples (which is surprisingly fun). I got him an FM converter for his car since he’s been forgetting to pick one up for as long as I can remember, and two tickets to a lacrosse game that we’ve been talking about going to for at least a year now. Nothing huge, we’re still keeping things simple. Although it did come to about $200.